Sick... With Low Self Esteem...
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Devil have been attacking me again .. putting me down .. having such low-self esteem.
He does not attack your physical body.. he attack right thru ur mind and by establishing fear into ur life.. Never have understood how people will have such low-esteem in the past.. now i understand how it felt because i am going thru right here and right now..
Ahh... never felt so down in my life before.. everytime i begin to put good thoughts into my mind.. the devil will just shoot it down .. wondering how am i going to overcome all these..
I dunnoe how to face all these challenges.. have learn to trust the Lord at all times..
when situation turn nasty and friends walk out of your life.. at least i have one person that will always stand by me .. that is Jesus..
He promised that he will never leave and forsake me .. continue to love me for who i am! If u are to ask me whether do u really care about those friends that is really going to walk out of ur life.. I do feel sad but i guess i need to learn to let go .. and let God rebuild my life =) ..
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Have I told you lately that I love you ...
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Woo... long time never really Blog....
Just want to say God is really a funny God..
God will always place me in situations where he will always remind me the things that i have done.. hard to explain...
Going to Hokkaido soon.. am so excited! woo.. and was supposed to stage a performance..
As there is kind of a few guys.. was asked to sing SOLO.. and the best part is this song ...
Have I told you lately that I love you...
Have I told you theres no one else above you
Fill my heart with gladnessTake away all my sadness
Ease my troubles thats what you do
I am kind of stunt and cannot really sing it out during the audition.. i think God u know what i mean..
haha .. really need to practise well man.. need to have emotions when i sing this song in Hokkaido .. so can attract gals.. Just Joking lar..
Okay GTG
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Weakness?
Monday, June 23, 2008
I think i am really having a tough fight with the devil right now ..
Always falling for the same weakness which is love ..
God is Love and he gave love so freely to us .. but i never knew i am beaten hands down in that... sometimes i really feel so lost.. i really want to be strong .. not fall into any temptations.. i am still standing .. but i dun really know how long i can stand...
I think i am really too emotional .. haha .. must really slay the lion of emotions.. i may appear to be strong .. but i am not.. i am really not.. I always seek a place where i can really hide myself where tears can really flow down....
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Captivated ..
Saturday, June 14, 2008
Woo... i guess i am really captivated by lots of things right now..
Really Thank God for his guidance... I really need to pray and fast for my life.
After being to Robb Thomson Tuesday Seminar.. i am really kinda inspired and fear.. Cause i really do not what i really want in Life.. In the past i really have lots of vision and dreams for the Lord.. like to go to full time ministry.. to be a teacher of the word.. to love people .. to love God..
This is really a time of planning and receiving new visions for the Lord.. Need to really pray and fast . ..
Have not really be active for the Lord for quite sometime .. Need to get my feet together..
God.. i neeeed... your support!
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Frustrated..
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
feel so frustrated...... ah! never feel so lost so tired before.. I need a BREAK! a REAL BREAK!
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Bad Day for me!
Friday, March 14, 2008
Today is Friday! I still wanna Thank God that today is FRIDAY although lots of bad things happen to me.. haha .. i still can laugh .. but my laughter seems to start out heartily but starts to sound a bit softer.
.... i lose one case.... i thought everything was going fine but in the end i lose it! I am very depressed but i really thank God that thru all these i learn the process and sometimes it is really God's way to lead and direct... actually to be frank .. i am not so depressed by this incident ..
... I really seems lost... i dunnoe what am i really supposed to do... i feel really really lost.... sometimes i really feel so tired... i just hope that i could just give up.. God can you give me the strength to give up... after receiving the comments .. how i wish i did not receive it .. cause now i feel lost... dunnoe how to carry on .. all i want is to lead a simple life.. with friends... with good friends! If given a chance to do it again .. i guess i will not change the way i did it...
I know my future seems.. haha i think God knows my timing and when will i be meeting him.... to be frank.. if i am to see him... i will feel lost...cause i dunnoe what to say or account to him.. i guess i will want to hug him and cry in his arms.. and say Thanks for allowing me to enjoying the place you created.. the people that i have met.. and stuff..
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Please Pray for me...
Thursday, March 13, 2008
A lot of things coming out... it seems like i am going to be drowning as i cannot cope. .. will really need your prayers.. help me!
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